Mar. 5th, 2009

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This Friday night, 03/06/2009, I am going to the Rubber Night at the Chaps II bar in San Francisco.



I love wearing rubber. I love the smell and the look and the feel. I like how it's restraining, but you can still move... the latex pulling at your limbs like a second skin. I feel like an alien creature - sexy and exotic and otherwordly. Plus I can get muddy or pissed on, and everything washes right off! Lately, I had two (argh) latex shirts tear, so I've been getting into heavy industrial rubber... huge eight eighth-inch thick hazmat suits with fully enclosed breathing that weigh 80 pounds or more.

It's the safest sex there is. {grin} Please let me know if you stop by the bar by texting me at 303-594-9220. I'll be at Chaps II from about 9:00 pm to 11:00 pm. Hope to see you there!
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Since the beginning of the year, I've been meditating for 15 minutes every day. I'm not very good at it, as you can imagine, because I'm a hyperactive fuck. But when I was in Japan for a semester in college, I started studying zazen by reading koans and sitting shikantaza (translated as "to sit and do nothing else").

I sit in the middle of the room. I used to have a yoga mat, but I seem to have misplaced it. Instead, lately I use a grey circular mat that says "NYC sewer". Fitting for me, huh? I usually sit in a half lotus ("hankafuza") posture, my back straight and my hands cupped in a bowl shape in my lap. My eyes lowered, but not actually closed so I am awake. In Japan, the Master used to come behind you and hit you with a stick if he thought you were sleeping. Maybe *that's* why I liked zazen so much! {grin}

The goal is to breathe deep into my stomach (the "hara"), and to think about nothing. That's the hard part. I picture a beautiful mountain lake. Each thought I have is like a stone being thrown into the lake and rippling outward. Some days, the lake is a mess of waves and sympathetic resonance. Other days, even the idea of the lake goes away, and the ripples in the lake turn into blackness, with a weird neon screensaver, like the pulses in the early WinAmp visualizer. Maybe you know what I mean.

Sometimes, I hit the jackpot, and my brain goes away entirely. It's kind of like being on poppers. I've been getting there less and less lately. So, I decided to shift my meditation a little. Here is what I've been doing lately:

Meditation, Mudcub-style )

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